The grand scheme of it all

Hubby leaves tonight for a business trip.  Well, technically it’s business but it’ll be more of a vacation for him.  I’m jealous, I must admit but he deserves this. 

Sometimes it’s all too easy to caught up in thinking about all that I do. All the stress and burden that comes with keeping up the household, raising two small kids, etc. It takes a concious effort to step back and re-align with the big picture.  When hubby goes away or has a bout of not being able to come home until late, naturally it’s tough with 2 little ones.  Regardless of what time hubby gets home, some days in the life of a stay at home (especially with young kids) you can find yourself clock watching and counting the minutes until “relief” comes.  When he goes away, that “relief” doesn’t come for however long he’s gone.  Sometimes, I’m resentful and feel like I pull a lot more of the load. But, when I step back, I see that in fact, in a lot of those moments, he’s in fact pulling the same amount but of a different load. Sometimes even more. To look at our life in the big picture, we are right on the track of where we want to be.  We knew going into this (life together, having kids, marriage)  that there would be small sacrifices. Dinners and tuck ins missed. Sometimes even family functions missed and things not always working out as planned.  But in the grand scheme of it all, we are side by side, still working toward our life goal and enjoying all the goals we’ve all ready reached.  Life is good. It hasn’t always been easy getting to this point and sometimes the selfishness of wanting things to be a certain way in the moment can over come me.

 But today, I’m taking that moment to step back and I’m feeling the force that we make together.  We’re doing it.  Exactly the way we planned, exactly the way we dreamed and exactly the way we want.  And when I go to bed, wearing his old shirt (that he never knew until recently that I stole from him), I’ll be smiling because I am just one part of the team we are together. A team I’m proud to be a part of because I know he doesn’t settle for anything less than great.

And come Tuesday, I might be back into the grind tearing my hair out, counting the minutes until the “relief” that he brings, comes but for today, I’m more than willing to take one for the team- to make the team all that better because it’s pretty much a gaurantee that he’ll be doing the same thing for me very soon.

Have an awesome time hubby!

xoxoxo